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Super Mom

I was talking to a girl a couple years younger than me. She is going to have a baby and we started to talk about her baby and then baby names and all stuff baby. We ended talking about her family and some of our wants and dreams. It was a nice chat but as I got home I started thinking about the mom part of the baby process. I asked my self: What kind of mom would I be? And ended up asking my self… What kind of mom do I want to be? Really? What kind of mom do I want to be? I knew of a few girl (my age) that were afraid to be moms because they were afraid of not measuring up to excellent mom they had. Their exact words were, “I’m afraid, I won’t be as great as a mom as my mom.” Also, I heard girl ( my age again) say that all they ever wanted to be is a mom. To me, those two statements were so foreign and down right weird. I couldn’t wrap my mind around them. Being a mom? Being a great mom like my mom? What about life goals? Career success? Marking out those bucket list ambitions? Spiritual growth? Going to different and exotic place (and/or living their)? Making a difference in the world? Living you mark in the world!? Is that not more important? Shouldn’t this come first? Sure, I want to be a mom. I got my kids name pick out and everything but I want to do something with my life. Is that bad? Well so many questions came to my mind and not many answers.

Now I don’t want to discredit my mom in the least. I love her with all my heart. She is my best friend (now) and she raised me right (my dad too can’t forget him). My mom is so awesome and cool and full of wisdom and a great cook. But I was always told to study first. Be something in the world. Want more and never settle for less. Also, they always discouraged me from having kids and being a mom at a young age or actually at any age until I finished my studies and was someone. To this day I am encourage to not settle down and finish school (currently a college student) and not have a kid out of wedlock because a kids ruined your life and you won’t finish school because you will have other responsibilities etcetera, etcetera. And I’m not saying it happens all the time, I hope you know what I mean. No offence to anyone. Yeah, but if you think about my parents background and my culture. A lot of Hispanic girls (and of course girls in general) are getting pregnant at a young age. Not to mention that in my parents country (El Salvador) they get married so soon and most people don’t even get to finish school. That’s all they expect in life. Getting a job and getting married…making ends meet. They just want more. They would say, you are lucky to be born in such a great country with so much opportunities to make something of yourself; to study. Of course this old conversation would always lead to…”back in my country…” LOL!  I guess is just the way I was raised. (I hear the, “You Raise Me Up” song coming on…LOL!)

However, right now a little before 3 on the first day of the year (2012), I’m asking my self, “What kind of mom do I want to be?” I really don’t know what kind of mom I’m going to be but I have a few things I hope I will be. I kind of want to be a Martha Steward kind of mom (before she went to jail and everything kind of crumbled for her. I still love you Martha). You know the one that makes everything homemade. This includes cooking and baking. I want to learn how to make the most delicious foods that my kids could brag about. That their friends would ask all the time if they could stay for dinner. Bake every Birthday cake. I want to make stuff, you know, DIY it. Make crafts and build stuff myself (with my “husband” of course). Sew and knit stuff up for my kids like gloves, hats, costumes and dresses and a boat load of other stuff. I want to make snack for their class. Also, I want to be able to make all those fun DIY ideas on Pinterest that I want to do. I also want to be up to date on whats cool and not and I don’t want to embarrassed them…okay I don want to embarrassed them. I want them to give me kisses before they go to school and as soon as they get home and before they go to sleep (of course after their bed time story). Also, I want them to talk about what is going on in their life. I want to be the one they go to for advice and that they feel free to ask me about anything. I want to be wise enough to answer them with mother wisdom and a lot from above. I want them to feel free to bring friends over to just play and hang out and eat great homemade snacks. I want to be that soccer mom or dance mom ( the good nice ones, not the crazy ones from TV). I want to dress them up really cute and fix their hair in a really cute way. And most importantly I want to be a great example of a women that is after Gods own heart. I want to be a mom that raise kids that love the Lord with all their heart and that they never feel that its a have to in their life but a want to. I want to be a mom that prays with them at night (EVERY NIGHT) to scare away all the shadows.  I want to be a mom that make the right decisions and learns when to say No. I want to be a mom that disciplines her children but at the same time knows that they are just kids (don’t want bratty kids! LOL!). Sigh, I guess I just want to be a good mom but with a list like that it looks like super mom. LOL! Well, only time will tell I guess.

You never will know what kind of person you will be in the future or even the next day or even hours. God does and I should rely on Him to lead me on the best path. He knows my heart desire. I just hope it matches His. He also knows when it’s going to be my time and when I am ready because I will never think I am ready, in my opinion. Doesn’t he tell us in Jeremiah 29:11, ” For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Shouldn’t I trust him? He knows, He leads, I’m just along for the ride.  But I know that marriage and kids are not for me for a several more years (between you and me it Scares me to death thinking about it. I have to many plans…argg I should really stop making plans and really leave it up to the big guy.  Sigh, Guess its a girl thing). LOL! Well, goodnight world. Peace and HAPPY NEW YEARS!

Ta-ta,

AGG

Sir Isaac Newton

"If I have seen further than others, it is by standing upon the shoulders of giants."

William Shakespeare

"Be not afraid of greatness: some are born great, some achieve greatness, and some have greatness thrust upon them."

Souza

"Dance as though no one is watching, Love as though you never been hurt, Sing as though no one can hear you, Live as though heaven is on earth."