I wonder Sometimes…

Hey World,

I was sitting in church trying to focus when I saw a family friend take her son into her arms and cradle him. He had follow asleep in his chair and she had plucked him from his awkward position. Seeing the seen gave me a weird blissful feeling.

I remember being younger and thinking Pregnancy was gross. like frogs or something. I think I watched to much animal planet, discovery and Nature. However, now I long to have a little belly and feel the butterflies inside as my beloved swims around. LOL! I see moms holding their sleeping child in their arms and gaze down on them with love in their eyes. it makes me long for my baby. to feel that love and not only love to my baby but to know that love made him or her. that the person I love secondly the most in the world (1st being Jesus [GOD]) and I made him or her.

I would love to be blessed with a son first and name him Vaughn Phillip (don’t steal it :p) but if blessed with a daughter I want to call her Colette or Nicolette.  God only know and when the day comes we (my husband and I) will know what to name  him/her. Gosh I feel silly saying this. But a girl can dream, LOL.

My prayer is that He will bring my husband into my life when He thinks I’m ready and that He will guide us to be the best parents for our children. (FYI: I mean yeah I would like to have kids but I am so not ready for that)

Sigh, I feel a lot of girls feel this way but we must be patient and wait on the Lord. Many don’t and some even become children raising children. You have to trust in the Lord to know best. Spirit calls spirit! Your spirit and soul know and look for its soul mate. When he comes into your life it says something around the the lines of, “And then my soul saw you and went,Oh there you are. I’ve been looking for you.” Then you must remember that all things are possible with God. 😉



Sir Isaac Newton

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